Banker do cheats!

December 5^th of 2005, I remember how empty my days are. To remember the memories that had happened for the past months could melted my emotions. I remember that day when I decided to meet this fella of mine in one of the mall nearby. And I didn’t realize that something would change, and something new has about to begin.

My friend and I met in the mall, and I never expected that he would bring someone. He was Kiro, thirty seven and working in a bank. We hang-up together. My friend and Kiro we’re dating that time. And I thought of, Kiro is a nice and interesting guy.

After two weeks, I got an invitation from Kiro. I remember that night when he stood in his dark jeans and his white shirt, wearing his chinky eyes, chiseled nose and kissable lips. I didn’t imagined that he’s already in his thirties. With his sweet smile and alluring eyes, it turned me on! He likes conversation a lot! He likes to debate on me and share thoughts, that I felt no dull with him and fell in love. I didn’t ask him what happened between him and to my friend. I didn’t asked simply because I don’t want to know the reasons, that someday it would hurt me or knowing that someone has been hurt. He was nice and responsible to his every word to me. He caught me from the fall of solitude and comforted me when I’m healing my wounds. He gave me warmth in the middle of my coldest December. It was Christmas when he asked, me to come over to his place. When I entered his door, I saw a paper bag over the table and, there, he was standing, staring with his eyeglass with the tip of smiles. He gave me a present, when I opened the bag; I found an expensive cell phone (that I still have it now).

He was much older than me, yet he knows how to have fun with someone’s age like me. In our relationship we had, we didn’t see each other often for the reason that he is a working man. And I didn’t realize that I was getting used to it. When we have time to see each other, we spent our time locking ourselves in his room. He has good physique and he knows how to fuck well. I remember that after he fucked me, he liked to suck my dick until I cum. He was adventurous when it comes to sex, that sometimes he would recommend using aromatic oil, sometimes chocolate or even ice cubes in our sessions. I liked him when he moaned and the sway of his great torso when we’re reaching the climax. I remember that he likes to kiss my neck after we had sex.

But happy times have always an end. It was 1^st week of April when I discovered that I’m not his only lover, that I and my friend are his lovers! He cheated on me.

That was the time I decided to let go of the feelings I have for him than to rotten the friendship that I and my friend have. Kiro and I talked about it, it was a hard decision but I thought of, it was the right way both of us. I let go the relationship that we had but not the friendship that we found.

I still in you

It’s not easy to remember the past, though, there are happy moments to cherish yet there are also the counterparts of it, sad stories. It’s hard to pull back what you pushed and locked into a box, and afterward open and check it out if it still hurt or not.

But the arduous thing is sharing out some parts where it is considering a peculiar issue (for those unfamiliar to this); I and my best friend who lives now south of the countryside had a conversation of our own lives. Though, I already knew her past stories, I let her share her present story. When it’s my turn to share, she got intrigued to my almost three years of living in the city, and to what happened to my life here.

Let’s call him AUSSIef, he’s half breed Australian and half pinoy. He was born in Melbourne, Australia but he was raised here from his tenth age. We met at the airport last October 2004. I remember that we only had a little conversation that time, yet we knew that there’s something in between that only silence could listen. We had the same flight in different seats. When the plane arrived in NAIA, it was also the time we parted our ways.

It was late January of 2005 when I got a call from him. It was really unexpected. We had talked and we agreed to meet in one of the place in Makati. When I finally got there, I really can’t believe that he’s really in front of me (weird). He was there, standing in his five feet, nine inches statuesque fair skinned and wearing his chiseled nose and kissable lips. And he stared his chinky eyes. That date, I’ve learned a lot from him. He was in his late 20’s and working as an engineer. After we had dined we watched a movie. Really a date for both guys, unusual and gay for a nonchalant scenario in public. He is a good conversationalist with a sense of humor. He knew how to make a good date.

After our first date, we figured out a second till it was really constant. He showed me how special I am and how he really cares for me. There’s time that he even fetched me from my school after classes. We communicate every now and then too. One day, he invited me to his place in ortigas. The place was cool, neat and very manly. We had dinner and afterwards we got into drinking. We had a little talked over our glass of wine; He said that we should both take seriously on what’s between the both of us. And there! We kissed…I really felt his soft lips caressing mine. I don’t know if the cold air in the room lets our body grabbed and rubbed each other, gave warmth to each other. Torso to torso. Then, we caught our breath, and I lay down beside him can’t imagine what we had done. grabbed and hugged me whispering contentment (taray dib a?).

 

We became lovers discreetly. He was so updated in my whereabouts so am I to him. In him, I found a perfect buddy to chill out, to talked to and love too. He cared a lot, and I appreciated every thing he would ask, said and do. Web build understanding and loyalty, even if it hurts sometimes, we see to it that problems that occurred would not be the destruction of what we had made in our relationship.

Mid- September of 2005 came when he found out that I’m cheating on him. I had an affair with a girl. She was my school mate; actually we’re in the same department. We’ve been together for more that two months, secretly to my lover. Beyond his knowledge, that I am having another relationship. I knew that I broke everything we had built in our castle of affair. That I’ve been so unfair to him for more than two months. I burnt the honesty, loyalty and trust that we had scrolled together. But I told him everything what is inside my heart, and asked for repentance. After I confessed, I thought that he would break up with me. But instead, he accepted the fact and forgave me. He let me kept my affair.

After the event, our relationship had never been the same as before. Lack of time to see each other grew like the weeds in the garden. Like a fresh rose in the bottle and then tomorrow it dries out. We got time to see, talked, dine, drink and had sex but not as often as before.

Priorities may come and goes; you will only need to choose whether use I-E-S or T-Y. You should catch the one you think you can handle.

~sef

It was rainy late October, when my affair with the girl I had finally ends. I was hurt and felt the failure that rotten my ego. And for those times, he was there for me. He was there ready to comfort and support me. After that, I made sure that I am part of re –building our relationship again. We started to go out often, put everything in place again.

It was 8^th of November 2005, our 9^th monthsary together. He fetched me to our house to celebrate outside. I though of we would go somewhere else, instead we head on to his place in Ortigas. When we arrived there he prepared some stuff to eat. It was a quite simple event. Then I asked him if there’s something wrong again.

I didn’t stop liking you until loving you. Dolefully, we’re in a happy queer world. We’ve tried to put a smile in this kind of affair yet we can’t blend with it nor really adapt to it. It’s like coating ourselves a faux just to glam the glum faces. We still couldn’t find what we’re looking for.

After a while he asked me a wandering question. He asked me if I would be in favor for a long distance relationship… I said “for how long?’ replied. Nothing.

He said that he needs to go back in Melbourne in a week. So soon, that shocks me. I felt devastated, knowing that all I cared is nothing to left. He insisted to continue the affair until his nonchalant comeback.

I refused to go beyond what we have and had, I refused to step into somewhat sacrifice because I don’t want to throttle ourselves in a promise. I Want you to be free without thinking that someone will get hurt, so do I. But of course, I want you to love me forever, put me in your memory and remember every treasure moments we had the bitter and the sweets. The same as I, you’re always be in my heart forever. After this night, we start a new….my friend!

What ever game I’ll had in my life you’ll always be a part of my goals. What ever plans I built, you’ll surely be one of the scrolls. Wherever5 I go, you’ll be one of my footprints, the moments we’ve shared and this the very moment will be a good memory to cherish. You are good that’s why I love you so much. I won’t forget you…ush.

Single’s prayer

Now I lay me down to sleep,

I pray for a man, who’s not a creep.

One who’s handsome, smart and strong.

He’s not afraid to admit when he is wrong.

One who thinks before he speaks,

When he promises to call, he doesn’t wait 6 weeks.
I pray that he is gainfully employed.

Won’t lose his cool when he’s annoyed.

Pulls out my chair and and opens my door,

Massage my back and begs to do more.
Oh! Send me a man who’ll make love to my mind.

Knows what to say when I ask “How fat is my behind?”
One who’ll make love ‘till my body’s a’ itchin’.

He brings ME a coffee too, when he goes to the kitchen.
I pray that this man will love me to no end.

And would never compare me to my or his best friends.
Thank you In advance and now I’ll just wait,

For know You will send him before it’s too late.

Amen.

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