Agony of conflicts

The greates conflict a man can have is a conflict with himself, his own principles, his ilk, tribe and loved ones. When you’re conflict with principles then very likely you have compromised your integrity. When your in conflict with your tribe, then very likely you’re seen as a traitor. When you’re in conflict with your loved ones and your ilk, then there’s a good chance that you have become intolerable.

Dead Meat!

I went to my friend’s house in a nearby ghetto last week. He told me how upset he knows that his boyfriend is doing unlikable things behind him. Here’s the story.

They are bisexual couple living together. He’s Say and his partner Pol; they live with Pol’z younger brother. They’ve been in a relationship for over a year. Then recently, they met this guy in the internet who they made friend of. They hang out together (3 of them). Then, we learned that this guy is a common friend of mine BEFORE.

“That user? I know him. He invited me once in a black party and then he introduced me to his friends as hi BOYFRIEND. This is so untrue! He lied! He used me just to let his friends know that he got a good looking boyfriend ( hehehe that is so true…^wink^)”

~uzh~

Say got shocked when he learned that I have known that fat guy who bugs his boyfriend.

“Yeah right, he’s a pretender! As if he knows a lot. How pathetic! He didn’t even know how to order in a menu. And this one thing I discovered. He got a horrible pair of feet! Hahahaha.

It’s like; he got this disease called elephantiziz! And damn! He also has fungal infection too! Yuck!”

~ Say~

And then I asked him what happened between this guy and his partner. He said that he discovered that his partner is having an affair with that loser!

“Damn of them! I read their sweet mezzagez…all of it! And I also caught that fat guy really flirting with my partner. He’s really a dead meat! I’ll going to kill him!”

~ Say~

I told him to confront Pol about that and they should talk about the situation first before anything else.

“Yeah right”

~Say~

Morning Memories

I woke up this morning with somewhat not in a good feeling. I felt that I’ll gonna have fever. I stayed on my bed instead of having my bone stretched. Then, I remembered the past when there’s someone who took care of my heart. I remembered the mornings when I often got a call from Joseph to wake me up so early just to remind me how he cares and to update me to some plans of the day. He doesn’t care whether I’m in a good or bad mood those mornings. Hell! Why I can’t forget those things? Crap! I really miss him. I miss everything about him. His eyes when he stared at me, his noze when he played mine, his lips when he kissed me and his touches…all about him!

It’s been over two years since we last seen each other. I wonder how everything would happen if there’s no such break-up between us. I wonder what will happen if I agreed to keep a long distance relationship with him. Did we keep it long enough to both of us? Mere dilemma yet it complicates everything between us.

For me, what we had before is a considerable romance; an unusual thing. Now, Joseph and I still keep a good friendship and communication bounded by past. He may be in a far away place and to keep someone else cares, we still keep a communication that minimizes the distances. Romance between us is done, yet we keep the friendship between. He already has someone who’s always there at his side. And I’m still waiting for mine.

I already moved on. I know I had.

Get it up-feeling it “UP”

Since one of the synonyms for “powerful” is “potent”, it’s hardly surprising we feel more powerful when we know we can get a good woody. Those who suffer from erectile dysfunction may be confused about the difference between cialis and viagra at the time you waqnt to have sex, because it pretty much provides you with an erection in  about a half hour to an hour and  the pill lasts about four hours. You  take cialis  when you figure your chances of getting lucky in the next thirty six hours are pretty good when it happens , you don’t want to wait however long for your pill on kick in. With cialis you can’t get “UP” anytime the mood is right as long as it’s within that approximate thirty six hours window. Both drugs require sexual stimulation to work, so don’t worry that you’re gonna be stuck with a problem in your hands (literally) if the situation changes.

Now get out there and strut your powerful, prime patouti0e pronto!

*based from a horny professional friend…wink!

young at heart

Five years ago, he was 28 a friend had an epiphany. He was an engineer, he was very successful…but got bored out on his mind.

Then one day, while he was down in samal island, where he and his young partner spend vacations and holidays- sauntering along the beach, he took up a new hobby (besides wacking his wang..hehe). He was bombarded by this visual presentation of college-aged guys, they all were shirtless, parading up and down the beach, playing volleyball, throwing frisbees. So he went out and bought a camera and started asking these guys if he could take their pictures. At first, he started off by offering them 100 pesos, the really ’special’ ones getting 150. And he was looking for specific details: Tattoos, great torsos and nice movement of muscles.

In fact, the beach was a perfect place for him to get started. As is obvious from his work, he’s obsessed with male torso. (but he’s not interested what is bellow the button). The beauty of the beach is that male torsos are all around.

There’s something fresh and unself-conscious about guys in their early twenties. His motivation was this deep yawning that he had to capture these guys. For those first couple of years he had his camera on automatic. He wasn’t interested in the buttons or technical aspects. He just wanted to capture  the moment.

His partner has been especially supportive, probably because when he’s off photographing he’s leaving him alone for a little while. His partner typically looks at beefy, older guys. But him, usually staring at smooth, twenty-something athletes. He doesn’t want to shoot older guys, because it isn’t his passion. But their opposite taste are healthy!

I saw this in my scratch…

Where will I be tomorrow?

Tomorrow will be a new day, a new life and a new beginning of a one’s new life. It’s another time to start and to loose towards one’s self destiny, to the end or for endlessness.

Where will I be tomorrow?

I think that I could be in a new role, anew being to breath. Struggles of life are consistent, anything around me will change yet I still live with my life. Breathing and fighting for a man’s right. Drifts of progress may flow me, yet I’m still me using the life that has given to me. Changes occur, yet I’m still me. A son, a brother and a friend. Times will change me, yet I’m still me, that have the soul of a man. I still kept my morality, intellect, emotion and my own liberty that has given to me.

I feel that the essence of my mortality will be in me forever. As long as I could consider the importance of the life that what is given to me. I will feel proud, for tomorrow, I will have my dreams and audaciously use my pure mortality. I will feel brave, for tomorrow, I’ll surpass the challenges that the life has. And I feel that, divine being is with me. For He gave me to have a strong true personality.

I learned that man’s life is very profound. It is very hard to explain yet man carries all the answers of the hardships. I learned that everything is borderless abundant in this world, in this cycle called life. I learn to appreciate and understand what was given to me. And I learned to accept the basis and destiny of life.

I suggest to my fellows to appreciate every little things in this world. For everything here have efforts and uses. That everything is important in our life’s cycle. That everything needs to understand and appreciated. That everything needs attention. That everything needs a care to preserve. Everything needs dedication to know the deep meaning of everything we have now.

DREZZ DEZIGNE PROPOZAL FOR A FRIEND

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FRONT VIEW.

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see my work!

UsHIE is my name.

I’m new in fashion. Ever since I was young I found this industry a very healthy thing in the society. It doesn’t die!

Here are some of my works.

Metallic green drez. Candy wrapper inzpired.

White Zequined drez.

Gold Metallic drez. Both halterz.

80′z inzpired with metallic patchez.

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sAd WhIsper

I have something to tell, it’s not easy but I have tied my fingers with all my guts just to let you hear this loud whisper of my heart. As my tears squeak to its on window, a million emotions hide in it. There was once I asked how it was happened, how did I took that moment and how I’ve tried to reborn the bravery I saved.

There I once or probably twice or thrice and even more of that of I thought. That there are moments I failed to tied up me to its own pillar of courage. I’ve known different characters in the past that influenced my sanity. There, I put rapport hoping to feel the connection between the two emancipated personas. When we were together, our perturbation collided that put me into a grandiose feeling. I grasped the expectation too tight, unaware that it started to break and pierce my palms. I have handed a cryptic view of this emotional state, however the odd limitless call of the affection still lingers on me. And when I’m left alone the beat of melancholy runs in the rhythm of the air. As the feeling of be wilderness, nonchalant, like it’s hugging to the sarcastic hope. Upon waiting to a call or a single buzz from someone you wanted to be with. But its just it! No one knows when it will happen.