I woke up this morning with somewhat not in a good feeling. I felt that I’ll gonna have fever. I stayed on my bed instead of having my bone stretched. Then, I remembered the past when there’s someone who took care of my heart. I remembered the mornings when I often got a call from Joseph to wake me up so early just to remind me how he cares and to update me to some plans of the day. He doesn’t care whether I’m in a good or bad mood those mornings. Hell! Why I can’t forget those things? Crap! I really miss him. I miss everything about him. His eyes when he stared at me, his noze when he played mine, his lips when he kissed me and his touches…all about him!
It’s been over two years since we last seen each other. I wonder how everything would happen if there’s no such break-up between us. I wonder what will happen if I agreed to keep a long distance relationship with him. Did we keep it long enough to both of us? Mere dilemma yet it complicates everything between us.
For me, what we had before is a considerable romance; an unusual thing. Now, Joseph and I still keep a good friendship and communication bounded by past. He may be in a far away place and to keep someone else cares, we still keep a communication that minimizes the distances. Romance between us is done, yet we keep the friendship between. He already has someone who’s always there at his side. And I’m still waiting for mine.
I already moved on. I know I had.
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